Better late than never

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The idea is to die young as late as possible- Ashley Montagu

Punctuality is not just limited to arriving at a place at right time, it is also about taking actions at right time.”
Amit Kalantri

Refreshing Start
This has been a huge theme in my life. I almost invariably start late but at least make the most of every experience when I am in it. If I begin a race late, I stick to the plan and not try to overdo anything to make up for lost time because I will definitely do more harm than good. I remember beginning in last place in a cross-country race completely unaware that the competitors that were lined up were my age group! After being informed that I was supposed to be on, a few seconds after the race commenced, I took off as casually as I normally would. Out of 50 competitors that day I came in 25, had I started with everyone I may have done better, but at least I was in a decent position and not last!

The biggest challenge I faced and to some degree (but much less now) still have  was discovering my purpose. One’s destiny is a combination of their greatest passion and their life purpose. My only problem? I had neither! My lack of passion or more accurately my change of different things I led myself to believe I was passionate about kept rotating over and over again. This obviously stemmed from not knowing what my purpose is. While I know that a lot pf people struggle in this area and reach their light bulb moment later in life, one thing is for sure, it beats living every second of everyday not knowing what it is. I am actually half way there. If I am certain my existence serves to flourish in its fullest in all realms of construction, building, fashioning, forming, making, moulding and shaping. All I have to do now is direct this skill and component to an area of life that is suitable for it. Creating stories in motion picture is just the beginning.

Progressing  In High Gear
I have received tons of concerns about why I have not update my blog the past year. To be honest, there is not a day that has passed without me wishing so desperately I could type words on the keyboard and hit publish! It has eaten me up so much. I kept going back and forth up and down wrestling in my head all kinds of ways to approach my Internet predicament. Using a public network is not an option for me. One may say, “you can just save each draft you create until it’s done,” except that  is not how I roll. I hate saving and updating, I assume that once I have finished typing the article is published. The other thing is I need plenty of time to put my posts together which essentially becomes the biggest hurdle. I did, however, have posts in mind that I am more than excited to put up.

I am becoming more and more multi-skilled mostly due to circumstances causing this change. They have consumed a lot of my time but I am enjoying every second of it. From only being able to do video production and film to photography and design.  Creativity is the order of the day and that is what makes every day worth it. The process of growing from strength to strength, faith to faith and glory to glory, requires doing what you have never done before and coming up with new ways of doing things you’re used to. Use Google Maps to find at least 3 alternative paths that leave work and do the same for leaving home, see how that feels. Try your hand at new recipes, it may all be uncomfortable at first but the rewards are always worth it.

In almost every part of my life I’m progressing well which allows me to have a better understanding of what it means to live a fulfilling life, the rich and satisfying life that Jesus has given us (John 10:10). Deciding to live it, working around challenges and focusing on solutions, cherishing all relationships and reconciling lost ones is what counts at the end of the day, no matter what happens in between.

Remaining In Full Focus
Utilising strategic thinking where planning in full detail what the entire month looks like and breaking that up into weekly and daily routines, is an admirable skill that is to be honed immensely. If I am to move from my comfort zone and get into the end zone it will be done through forming this habit to the best of my abilities and engaging in focused thinking, where 80% of my efforts and energy will be invested in my top 20% of activities. Listing those and disciplining myself to implement as much as possible each day will greatly factor into living a wholesome life, something I am so excited to undergo.

 

 

 

Manic Monday

Psalm 118:24
This is the day the Lord has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it.

Lamentations 3:22-23
Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great isYour faithfulness.

Freshening Things Up
I will be honest with you, right off the bat I will come out and say it, I am certain I may never understand why most people do not like Monday. It is such a beautiful day of the week. Here are a few reasons why I like Monday:

1) It is the first day of a work week. That is why I prefer the notion of Thank God It’s Monday over any other day.
2) It comes after the weekend, so the adventure of an enjoyable weekend crosses over into work.
3) You have something to look forward to as the weekend progresses, leaving you excited throughout the week and weekend!
4) You wait fewer days for Monday than you do Friday
5) It introduces a new week and thus a fresh start to everything.
6) With a positive mindset, you are never feeling blue.
7) There are quite a number of customs that can be created:
a) Makeover Monday
b) Motivation Monday
c) Magic Moment Monday
d) Music Making Monday
e) Movie Review Monday
Alright I admit, I made up some of those, but they can be great ideas to help maintain certain routines. I am more than well aware that the pessimists out there are thinking along the lines of Moody Monday, but if you had a bad day you can still choose how you want your week to go. The events may disappoint you if they do not seem exciting, however, you can decide to tackle them with a positive attitude and see what the outcome turns out ti be like.

The Bangles’ View
I have recently started this tradition of listening to the song Manic Monday by The Bangles just to serve as a fresh reminder of a brand new week. The funny thing is that it more-or-less focuses on the negative aspects of Monday, not completely, but to some degree. The one line I have a particular fascination for is (referring to Sunday) My I don’t have to run day. As many of you who have been following along with my posts know, I really enjoy running and while Friday and Saturday are also days I rest and recover, I ensure that the entire weekend is reserved for fun activities. I love how they make it sound as though the entertainment is ruined by the presence of the day. Suddenly they are not sure what to think or do now that they know it is Monday. Regardless of this, despite their dislike for the day, they manage to maintain some kind of affirmative outlook, something we should all aspire to achieve.

The Cross-Over
The thing I find interesting is how people have their minds all over the place as soon as they hear or realize it is Monday. No doubt some would argue that the weekend is too short, while others are of the belief and in favour of the opposite. I think that due to the fact that the weekend is short-whether they know it or not-most people overdo it. It could be the big adventure of heading into the vast landscapes, camping, hiking and enjoying the nature; the intense and fast-paced city life with bright lights and party vibes all over the place, or time at home filled with the mental strain that comes from figuring out a way to make the weekend bearable. All these have their advantages when considering how the week went. It is not advisable for a workaholic to party hard over the weekend but rather gain as much rest as possible to establish balance in the life they lead. In the same way those doing little work or effortlessly complete their projects should consider some measure of amplified amusement, especially if they are introverts, at least that is my take on it.

One thing is for sure, no one supports the idea of work kicking off after the weekend, but what if everyone chose to make the most of their Monday? How amazing would it be if they ended the weekend fully mentally prepared for Monday? I especially want to challenge those who bury themselves deep into the world they create with their words: The Monday Blues. Your attitude at the beginning of a task determines its outcome more than anything else, and if this is true for general tasks, what about the effect it has on days of the week? I believe that is something noteworthy to think about. It may be just ,me but I am confident that in spite of everything the day may bring forth, the result depends and hinges on what we speak into the day as soon as we get up. I encourage you, experiment with it. Declare everyday an excellent day, even if the activities and events are dull and boring, test the limits of your creativity. In the end, you decide how you feel about how your day goes, might as well make it awesome.

A Better Sense Of Everything

Sometimes You Have To Let Go
I have decided to take on the Daily Post challenges each Wednesday from now on just to spice things up. I do enjoy the deep thought-provoking posts I normally do but I would like to experiment with the more light-hearted ones just to see where things lead. The challenge is for us to decide which one of our 5 senses we would love to enhance in exchange for  completely losing another. After much thought and deliberation (believe me, it took a really long time) I have chosen to discard smell for sight.

I am one who has sadly had their eyes imprisoned in glasses for 17 years. More on that much later when do a small series on my journey to better eyesight without glasses. I have always been drawn to what I like to call Binocular X-Ray Vision. Any and every superhero whose vision was enhanced in addition to the primary power they possess have been a particular fascination to me. As for smell, Well I do admit that the drawback of not being able to smell is getting an idea of what unrecognizable food tastes like. This is something I can live with though. It is extremely important to hear music, voices, people, noises of vehicles and animals, and the beautiful and mellow sound of nature. Touch is vital, we underestimate the beauty of pain. Imagine leaning on a thorny plant by mistake but not being able to tell? Or feeling the glorious touch of the angelic hands of a masseuse/masseur? I love my food and because of that I will always appreciate the job our tongues have. Those who taste food for a living are very privileged. They must never take that for granted, the good, the bad, the works.

Seeing Things Differently
Imagine what the world would be like if everyone had eagle eyes? Anyone and everyone could see anything from anywhere! Ideally that is how the world should be. For me I  enjoy the things I see. The good things this world has to offer. There is the nature, the mountains, especially when the sun sets behind the mountain and its reflection shines on the river. A father overjoyed to pick his daughter up from school. A mother’s undying support at her son’s sporting game. Movies like The Blind Side, Faith Like Potatoes and Facing The Giants. A man opening the door for a woman, or offering to help even when she does not need it. A couple you intuitively/instinctively know were always meant to be, sharing a kiss on a park bench. The things we see essentially have an effect on us, a lot more than we realize. After all what can man give in exchange for his eyes? Sometimes the most significant things in our lives are treated with least respect and are given least regard. The key to overcoming that is understanding that the small things make a big difference and to see what nobody else sees.

  

Do Something, When You Feel Like It And When You Don’t

Proverbs 13:4
The soul of the sluggard craves and gets nothing, while the soul of the diligent is richly supplied.

Proverbs 14:23
In all toil there is profit, but mere talk tends only to poverty.

2 Timothy 2:6
It is the hard-working farmer who ought to have the first share of the crops

Get up and do something -Tee Kay (ZiFM Stereo)

Start by doing what’s necessary; then do what’s possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible.- St Francis Of Assisi 

Ability is what you’re capable of doing. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it. – Lou Holtz

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.- Albert Einstein

Getting Started
Do what you hate and do it now. It is so easy to do the things we love. What about the positive impacts the opposite has? You see, so many times we find ourselves kind of going through the motions wondering if what we are doing (or not doing) is giving us or depriving us of the fulfilment we desire. For a minute though I would like to speak those who partially and courageously honest call themselves: Lazy Bones. 

We all aspire to be something, something we can be proud to show off everywhere. You kick off and do what you believe is right for you and God willing is in fact right for you, a few days, weeks and months pass and the train is running smoothly. Momentum flows and the ride is a such a smooth sail that it feels like cruise control! Nothing fluctuates. There are no ups and downs. It is like driving on a beautifully tarred road with so minimal bumps, you cannot even feel it! Until suddenly a heavy responsibility is required of you such as staying in late, or more work than usual piles up on you and you now have to slice up some workout time, TV time rest and relaxation time in half or more. 

This easily becomes mentally overwhelming and you get up each day wishing you did not have to go to work or even so much as pick up groceries! I have definitely felt that numerous times. One small habit of slightly slacking in work leads to another one at home and slowly but surely you turn into a sloth! You get to that stage quicker when you are so diligent and excellent with everything that you find yourself with nothing to do. The solution is simple but not easy.

You just do what you hate. If you hate writing, write. If you hate reading, read. There is only so much entertainment TV can give. I have realized that over the course the past few months. It could be that start of a brand new hobby and you may also surprise yourself, friends and family with your new-found skills! 

Do something new and uncomfortable. I remember first practicing with DJ softwares. I was completely clueless! Thankfully though my audio and sound engineer friend helped me out and with some practice I was getting somewhere in no time. I discovered that an hour felt like 5 minutes! I love that hobby and I simply jump straight into that if for some unknown reason I cannot think of anything to do. Avoid talking yourself out of it. You cannot uncover the potential you have or realize how bad you are at something if you let fear take the best of you. Get in, give it a shot and tally the results!

Use the Pomodoro Technique. Believe it or not I am literally doing that right now. Find a small activity you like and keep at it for a straight 25 minutes. Drawing, preparing a new dish which might take longer but at least keeps you busy, running,  or working with your hands. I recommend using the countdown timer on your phone or tablet. After which you take a break for just as long a time! This way you balance rest and some measure of productivity. You may fancy trying this out at work if you do not normally do so. I definitely encourage it if you tend to procrastinate often. 

Have at least 3 activities planned. There is nothing worse than being highly motivated to do something and all of a sudden you stop midway because it is not so exciting anymore. This is where rotating activities comes in. The one moment you are going for walk, the next you are taking pictures, finally you are comparing author’s viewpoint in different magazines in the same category. Split these in 25 minute chunks and go from one to the other after your break and you have yourself an exciting day to look back to.

A Mind-Map does not hurt. If you find that all the suggestions I have put forth are too tedious for the energy you have, either in the morning when you get up or when you come from work, you can always find out what you tend to think about when you are generally not doing anything constructive. Sit down, draw a mind map. It does not have to make sense. More often than it will be the opposite. The time here does not really matter as much as the effort you put into being as creative as you can with what you write down.  How do the thoughts connect? Are they really as different as they appear to be? Why are you thinking about these things specifically? Piece together anything and everything that make sense to you, even though it may not make sense to anyone else. Only you would understand your thoughts after all.

In the end it is about maximizing your free time. It is the most precious commodity we have. We cannot waste a single bit of it. I will be speaking to extroverts in part 2. Here, without meaning to at all-maybe because of my nature as an introvert-I came up with things that suit introverts. I have been in situations where my guys and I just sit looking at each other silly. I found out how to overcome that.

The Fourth Fruit: A Chess Battleground

Galatians 5:22-23
But the Spirit produces love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control. There is no law against such things as these

Isaiah 40:31
But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint

Ecclesiastes 7:9
Be not quick in your spirit to become angry, for anger lodges in the bosom of fools

The Checkers Challenge
I used to love playing Checkers so many times. It is actually kind of scary thinking about it. Admittedly my ability to perceive and anticipate my opponent’s move or foresee the possible danger in the move I made was a weakness I had. Fortunately to make up for that I took my time and saw some moves that were very beneficial for me, more than I ever imagined! There is still nothing worse than the handicap of taking blind steps. I was always mentally fatigued when my opponents reacted in a way that indicated vulnerability with the move I made.

At times in life I feel like I am playing checkers. I make decisions and later wonder whether or not I made the right one. I know myself to be the kind of person who only realizes the mistakes made, afterward. This has lead me to be a bit antsy about most things. I often question the next move before making it only because I will not be in a position to fully determine the advantages and disadvantages. In this case I am then mocked by circumstance as if to be told that my move was the wrong one and there is no resolution.

A Villainous Tactic
While that does seem to appear crude in almost every form-at first glance-it really is not. One thing I have to just sit back and applaud is the common factor that most villains have,  patience. True their intentions are obviously disreputable and to their misfortune, their patience is exercised in vain, however, it is still very admirable how long their limit is! I began to ponder this factor and came to understand that it lies deep in their desire to accomplish their goal. In addition to seemingly well calculated plans, and in the case of intelligent bandits, properly and carefully calculated plans, they are so confident in what they have put in place they believe nothing will stop them. One needs to comprehend the profound aspect of this. They are so organized that backup plans are also set. Of course this is to account for the hero who is to demolish all they have taken time to build, yet it still stands to reason that regardless of how sinister the outline is, the depth of patience lies in the confidence of strategic planning motivated by the strength of the desire to achieve the goal.

A few questions one must ask himself (generically speaking) is:
1) How smart is my goal? That is Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Realistic and Timely
2) How strong is my desire to achieve it?
3) Have I made tactical plans to accomplish it?
4) Am I confident in my plans? Why or Why not?
5) Do I have a contingency plan in place as a precautionary measure?

The Individual vs Wrath
I have asked a lot of my friends who are top chess players how long a game can easily last. I was shocked to have found out that three hours is a general length to reach. They speak of this as if it were typical! I respect that, truly. I must congratulate myself in recognizing how patient I have become in the past few months. True there have been moments where I have erupted in anger unnecessarily, fortunately to grow from that, glean from such experiences the qualities I lacked, and use them to my advantage should the need arise. Strangely enough a phrase that I have recently used indirectly in reference to how I must proceed with the situation before me is: I’ll have to let this play its course. My personal favourite one is: Patience will have to be the order of the day. Saying that immediately puts me into The Zone.

I remember a scene in Evan Almighty where the words of God were so revelatory I was blown away. He was speaking to Evan Baxter:

God: Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?

For me growing in patience is like a game of chess. If I lose my cool for a few minutes then I have made the wrong move and my wrath begins to get the upper hand. If the length in time it takes for me to get angry decreases and the length in time extends while I am angry, then my wrath has put me in a corner and I am very close to receiving check-mate. If on the other hand the length in time it takes for me to be angry increases, and the time I am angry is brief, then I have trapped my wrath and have it very close to check-mate. When do I actually reach check-mate you ask? When my patience is so high that I annoy everyone around me.

Sometimes things aren’t clear right away. That’s where you need to be patient and persevere and see where things lead.- Mary Pierce

He that can have patience can have what he will. Benjamin Franklin

The Heart Of An Optimist

Romans 15:13

Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

In this hour, I do not believe that any darkness will endure- J. R. R. Tolkein: The Return Of The King

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Welcoming Portion
Host: Thank you, thank you. It’s so good to have you with us, Tarisai, no excuse me, I should say Tsizzles or T.O perhaps?

Me: T.O is good thank you very much.

Host: Ah, perfect. So tell us, T.O, why do you happen to have so many names?

Me: Well in boarding school I was very often called by my surname, at least at the hostel, by my guys-and to some degree-my coaches also. Names ranging from Greenbean, Coconut, Tenessee and Premises, just to name a few, were among the popular ones. These just happen to come by probably because of the way I carried myself.

Host: Really? Please do tell.

Me: I was was not always the forward, teasing or dissing-for-fun kind of person, but still held my ground and hung out with those who did gain plenty of entertainment from taking advantage of the fact that I never dissed back. This became a very admirable characteristic unique only to me.

Host: Admirable indeed. I’m very curious as to where Tsizzles came from.

Me: Yes, first I must mention what I was called in Denmark very often: T and Mr T. It was interesting because I used T.O all the time so most people called me that, but then the Danes used Mr T and the Slovaks used T. This, again, came all on its own. After being there, I briefly became a recording artist and I named myself Tsizzles because of my sizzling fresh lyrics.

Host: Hmm interesting. You never mentioned your friends having called you T.O, how did that come to be?

Me: At this point, because I was so used to being given names and following along with them, my brother one day decided to call me T.O. That then got around the family quickly. This, by the way, was in 2004 and I went to Denmark in 2006. To this day it’s still very tempting to introduce myself to everyone as T.O.

Host: Well with a name like that I can see why. I’ll bet you get this lot but, what does T.O stand for?

Me: Actually knowing that people are immediately going to be asking that, I just answer before they get the chance, with Tarisai the Optimist. A friend of mine confronted me about that with a thought that never occurred to me because I was so used to it. They said, “That doesn’t make sense. How can you be Tarisai “Tarisai the Optimist” Mzwimbi?” I just told them it was simply because I could be. Admittedly though, Optimist is something that just came from the top of my head. Having been to YWAM in 2012 where, once again, I used T.O, I was questioned about it quite often. In Denmark I mentioned that it was just a random name. In Cape Town I realized that was not going to help.

Host: What did you decide to do then?

Me: I saw that using my first name and that awesome title was not going to cut it. I really loved it though. It just made introductions easy. I then chose to define those initials as The Optimist. This means in a literal sense, anyone who calls me out, “Hey T.O!” are really saying, “Hey The Optimist,” which honestly had a nice ring to it the more I thought about it. At least this way I can rightfully be called, Tarisai “The Optimist” Mzwimbi.

The Heart Of The Matter
Host: Very nice, very nice. The Optimist. I love that. Now you obviously carried this name around for a long time, did you ever feel connected to it in some way?

Me: In fact, it’s funny you say that because being an optimist is something I discovered I lived throughout my life. Whenever I have problems that scare me, like thinking about where my life is going, or a movie I would’ve seen, or comparing where I am to where the friends I learnt with at school are, I simply think my way through that. You see, I’m a Contemplator, that I means I think first, then act and feel. I…

Host: Wait , wait, wait, sorry to cut you there. Does that mean when you get hurt, you think the pain away?

Me: Believe it or not, yes! I cannot tell you how many deep secrets or moments of regret, embarrassment or disappointment I have kind of kept in mind and briefly forgotten about then feel less negatively impacted by, after a while. It was great experiencing that. It’s always a nice way to go through anything tough that a real friend is not in a position to lend an ear at that point in time. Sadly, though, because I’m not really the chatty type, thinking about telling someone-as enormously beneficial as it is-will more often than not, be the last thing on my mind.

Host: Understable. We can all be like that sometimes. Not sure about the telling someone part. Anyways, this thinking problems away method is not something everyone can do. Can anyone, realistically speaking, become an optimist?

Me: Most definitely. You see, it’s not about the perky personality that suppresses problems. If you are the shy or very reserved kind of person, you can still be an optimist. Looking at the bright side does not mean you forget or trivialize the problems you have, no, rather it’s centered on these two factors:

1) Things can always be worse. Another person may say, “Things aren’t always what they seem.” These essentially mean things are not as bad you think they are or as they appear to be, because they can always be worse. In other words, you can at least be grateful that you still live. That’s something very easily forgotten. Someone can say, “How can losing a loved one not be the worst thing?” Simply because you could lose more than one in a short period in time or you could be the one being mourned.

2) You think the opposite of negative thoughts. It’s very natural for us to think negatively towards any kind of situation or person, this makes thinking positively very hard. It’s not built in us, therefore, thinking the opposite of every negative thought that enters our mind makes it easier for us to feel better about how we can shape our future, no matter what comes our way.

Host: That is very deep, if I say so myself. A new way of looking at optimism. I imagine this was not a walk in the park.

Me: Not at all. It took years of training. In a way, I kind of understood what it meant to be transformed by the renewing of your mind (Rom 12:2). It all comes down to how you perceive the situation.

Host: Well that’s all from me. Thank you for being with us today on Inside Out: the show that gives you an inside look into the lives of the great, making a huge deal out of what would normally be viewed as unimportant.

Once again T.O thank you.

Balancing Life: The Semi-Circle Of Rhythm

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The Presence Of The Pendulum
Life presents us with a lot of opportunities to achieve something meaningful, do something amazing, and change someone else’s life. The real truth is we all have a chance to do this every day in one way or another, it all comes down to how we spend our time. Whether you are the busiest bee in town or the laziest sloth or feel that way, everyone has those moments to make something happen.

The worst period in my life was what I call, “The Sloth Years,” not because things did not progress fast enough in my life but because I did not have much to do! It is one thing  having one gap year in your life, I had three! That is the effect, strength and power of a lack of purpose. I literally had none. I was completely eaten up inside. The truly terrifying part was that a side of me felt impassive to the situation while the reality of it sunk in every now and then. The weight of being unproductive increased with each passing day as it horrifically became lighter at the same time. My comfort zone was all I understood. I created a world separate and distinct from civilization. The pendulum froze in one position the whole time.

Glimmer Of Hope
Before heading to Cape Town to learn video production I was a recording artist. This provided some sense of productivity but still lay in the shadows of laziness. I put effort into writing songs and fortunately managed to record a few. The artistry was similar to that of a preschool kid’s drawing. Things did not escalate past a mixtape. You could say I that received an E for “Effort.” It really hits you hard when your mind produces nothing but a vacuum as you dig as deep into it as possible in search for understanding and knowing what you were made for. Thankfully the birth of this blog emerged from those wilderness days as well. In the end they did not turn out to be completely futile. Despite this the pendulum now remains motionless on neither side of where it ought to be.

The Pain Of Overcommitment
The real truth is brought forth from the deception of overworking. After I finished my video production and film school courses, I became part of staff. A different but amazing experience. From shooting company projects to shooting and editing training ones, it stretched me and gave me a sense of fulfilment. The problem came when I found myself doing more than I bargained for. I was in charge of production equipment, garden tools, the computer lab, guest house, the staff offices, students’ theory and practical classes and homework, and finally reporting false alarms! Numerous times my plea for aid in splitting my tasks was briefly reviewed and ultimately denied. I was exasperated often but the time that consumed me with rage was when my beauty sleep was disturbed (yes even the small amount of peace I fought so hard to obtain, was taken from me), once again because of student assignments. I had no weekend. None at all throughout that year. This time the pendulum swung to the other side, held back from progression like a broken record.

The Balancing Act
After a cold year of searching for the job that suited me, I found it, then it departed from me no thanks to shareholder challenges. This opened the door to freelancing which has provided some freedom. I am currently juggling three jobs and they make every second spent in that year with work torture worth it. The pendulum finally swings smoothly from left to right, the way it was designed to. Finding the equilibrium between work and rest can be a full day job in itself but a reward worth more than the effort required to attain it. When you discover the value of working from your rest as much as the necessity of resting from your work, you begin to see how beautifully shaped each day turns out.